Sunday, September 4, 2011


I don't know if there's anyone out there who even checks here any more. ~sigh~ Clearly, I haven't been and it's my blog.

There just really hasn't been anything to write about, sexual/kinky or otherwise.

Still working with the same long exhausting commute. Still a wife & mother.

There has been no vacation since last year. My vacation days this year have been spent on doctor appointments and university visits (oldest daughter started last month). It's September & I only have 3 of my 15 days left. I could really use a vacation - a secluded warm peaceful beach somewhere preferably - but it's not happening unless I win the lottery.

Things with my husband are the same as always, although we have started marriage counseling. It's only been a few months, too early yet to tell if it's really happening. In the meantime, no club visits or classes, no spankings/floggings, etc. What sex we've had has been the same old-same old and I just don't feel like writing about it.

I've developed a few health issues over the last couple of years. With my difficult work schedule, I've gained a bit of weight. I was overweight to begin with & now it's worse. And this has led to problems with sleeping, among other things.

You know what happens when you're consistently only sleeping a few hours a night? Exhaustion. Depression. Anxiety. Loss of libido. Loss of interest in doing a lot of things you used to do. Irritability.

So I've had a sleep study done -- I have insomnia, apnea, & twitchy limbs. Yay for me ~extreme sarcasm~

I'm working with a sleep behaviorist for the insomnia. She's had me on stimulus control & sleep restriction since Tuesday. Basically, the bed is for sleep only (well, okay, sex too, if I, you know, actually had the energy & desire for it) & I can't go to bed until 12:30am & have to get up at 5:30am. Here it's Sunday & I'm exhausted. Constantly fighting the urge to lie down and sleep. Of course, hub doesn't like it because it's an inconvenience to him - who cares if it's for my health (ooh, I think my sleep deprivation - among other things - bitchiness is showing).

I'm still waiting to see the other doc about the apnea & treatments. I really want to be able to sleep soundly again and not wake up feeling even more tired than when I went to bed.

Anyway, there it is.


mad_baker said...

I still follow and I hope you find that there is something in your life to write about; even if you just need to vent some frustrations.

Florida Dom said...

I hope you return and update us on what you've been up to.


lil said...

I hope that sleep comes again soon.